WHY ME?…Because God Wants to Use You For Good
I pride myself that I have a positive and good attitude. I donate to charity, I sponsor a child, I have my faith and I believe that my God can do the miraculous. But just like everyone else, some days I ask “Why Me?”
Why is this happening to me? Why must I go through this burden and strife? Why, why, why me?
Objectively, I know that this is not the right question. After all, why should anything bad happen to any of us? Why should innocent children be born into poverty? Why should natural weather events destroy nations and devastate families? Why should that baby be the one that is born sick?
I know that there is no perfect answer and there is no right person to ask. But this does not satisfy my soul. I crave an answer, I’ll take just a whisper or a word…So; in the stillness of the night I ask the question and wait in silence for something…someone…anyone. I just need an answer that is good enough to soothe my spirit. The answer I hear always comes back the same and never quite seems to do the job! “Because God wants to use you! You must go through a rite of passage to develop the empathy to be a shinning light to others.”
But what if I don’t want to be a light? I am only human. What if I just want to be happy and normal like everyone else? And then that voice speaks again and says, “My child, you are anything but “normal”! Psalm 139 declares that you are uniquely, fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of Christ and as his child you will always be the candle that brings light to the dead of night. He makes that clear in Matthew 5:14 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; nor does anyone light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house.”
So as I cry “Why me,” and I know you do to, I remind myself of Philippians 4 and I am comforted. That I can do all things through him that strengthens me, including facing my darkest hour. Psalm 37 therefore instructs me to delight in the Lord, and rest comfortably in Him. Only then can the desires of my heart be fulfilled. And with that, I finally accept the answer to the question Why Me? So that one day I will have my very own testimony. A testimony that not only brings the perfect peace that comes through relationship with Christ, but one that will motivate and inspire a generation for the glory of the kingdom.